The Week's End

Are you serious? This week has already went by? I haven't even posted since last Thursday? What the heck?

I'll tell you what the heck. I am exhausted. I can't seem to muster up the energy to do any of the things that my mind (and body, for that matter) keep telling me I need to do. Haven't worked out, not once this week. Haven't washed the dishes yet. Haven't made one single thing, even though I have massive creative overload right now. My "list" has come to a screeching halt.


Me and the doc had a nice little talk yesterday about what Zoloft could possibly do for my life. And me and the "girl stuff" doctor are going to have a nice long talk next week about why I am going to become a drug addict if something isn't done about my very painful girl parts.


Do you ever feel like you aren't living up to your potential? I know that some people are quite the opposite and feel like they have no potential to live up to. I, however, feel like I have masses of potential, yet no energy to even attempt to live up to it. Do you ever just know, deep down, that you were meant for something bigger than what you are doing right now? Because, I believe that my life is meant to be a lot more than what it is at this time. To be honest with you, I feel a little ashamed that I haven't accomplished more by now. I will be 30 this year. There are people half my age who have accomplished worlds more than I have. What's up with that? But when I look back at my life, I really can't remember ever feeling too great. It seems like I have always felt tired and annoyed and frustrated. I have always just wanted to take a nap. And now that I am getting some grey hairs and my metabolism has obviously slowed down, I wonder what is going to happen to me.


I wonder if I am ever going to feel better. Will my working out and eating right pay off somewhere down the road? Will life begin at thirty? I mean, it is the new twenty you know.
*Come on people. Lay some advice on me. Tell me your story. Or just make me laugh. That's always nice. Feedback. I want feedback.


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Weekend Update

On Friday evening I always have big ideas about what I am going to get done over the weekend. But then, come Saturday morning, all I really want to do is curl up in a sunny spot and rest. This has been especially true this weekend, as the weather has been unusually sunny and warm.

I have been ridiculously slack lately at getting things posted. Work has been very busy and I don't have a computer at home, so I'm left trying to find time to fit a post in here and there. But today I came to mom's to use her computer because I miss you guys. I read your posts. But it's just not the same if I'm not posting, too. I miss the interaction. And, today, I want to share something different with you.

Inspiration boards have become a very popular subject lately. I love to see other people's inspiration and I'm sure you do, too. Interestingly, I have been making inspiration "pages" for years. I put together small collages in a little book that I made in high school. I keep boxes and folders full of magazine clippings, waiting to be edited and compiled. These collages are my own personal escape. They are something that I do for myself and I don't often share them with others. But, seeing as you are an appreciative crowd, I thought I would share a few of them with you.

These are three of the more feminine and sparkly collages in my collection. I'm not a huge fan of tons of bling in real life, but I love the way gems look when piled up on paper. The images come from years and years of random magazine addiction. The photos aren't great, but I hope you can pick out all the images and words.

I think I have also mentioned my enormous collection of fashion photography before. Maybe one day I will give you a glimpse of those, too. One reason that I enjoy these collages so much is that they are just for me. There are no expectations from others like there is for my art and design projects. Does that make sense? No one asks about or questions these things. But everyone wants to pick apart and give opinions on and tell me what I should do with my paintings and designs. Do you have anything like that? Something that you do just for yourself? A creative outlet that demands nothing more than your own heart? I would love to hear about it.

I hope you have had a restful weekend. I hope to see you more often this week! And I hope you find time to do something just for you.

xoxo ~Jo~