Get It Together

*photo from French Vogue via { a glamorous little side project }


I thought that, by now, I would not have acne.

I thought that, by now, I would be able to successfully curl my own hair.

I thought that, by now, I would have my own career.

I thought that I would not be going grey already. I thought that I would have my own house by now. I thought that being voted most talented in middle school and high school was some good omen that I might end up doing something fabulous with my life.

Guess what. I was wrong.

I have always known that I am not much of a motivated person. Other people set goals. Other people are go-getters. Other people end up being stylist and designers and event coordinators at the age of twenty two. I am not one of those people. I have big ideas. I have dreams. I have the someday syndrome. You know what I'm talking about. Someday I'm going to make enough money to build the home that I want. Someday I'm going to have the job of my dreams. Someday I will have beautiful long shiny hair, perfect makeup, real diamond studs in my ears, two gorgeous dobermans and a black SUV. Okay. So anyway, you get the idea. But you know what happens? Someday never comes. They really shouldn't have read us fairy tales when we were young. I keep waiting for the fairy godmother to show up and make things happen. She's a little late.

So now what? What am I getting at? Well. I have been trying to get out of the someday mode and into the now. Yoga teaches mindfulness. Paying attention to what is happening right here, right now at this point in time. And I think that I need to think like this more. I need to quit planning and just do. Quit daydreaming and start going for it. Gees. Sounds a little scary.

But, hey. Someday is getting closer all the time.