Thursday, June 17, 2010

The Week's End

Are you serious? This week has already went by? I haven't even posted since last Thursday? What the heck?

I'll tell you what the heck. I am exhausted. I can't seem to muster up the energy to do any of the things that my mind (and body, for that matter) keep telling me I need to do. Haven't worked out, not once this week. Haven't washed the dishes yet. Haven't made one single thing, even though I have massive creative overload right now. My "list" has come to a screeching halt.

Me and the doc had a nice little talk yesterday about what Zoloft could possibly do for my life. And me and the "girl stuff" doctor are going to have a nice long talk next week about why I am going to become a drug addict if something isn't done about my very painful girl parts.

Do you ever feel like you aren't living up to your potential? I know that some people are quite the opposite and feel like they have no potential to live up to. I, however, feel like I have masses of potential, yet no energy to even attempt to live up to it. Do you ever just know, deep down, that you were meant for something bigger than what you are doing right now? Because, I believe that my life is meant to be a lot more than what it is at this time. To be honest with you, I feel a little ashamed that I haven't accomplished more by now. I will be 30 this year. There are people half my age who have accomplished worlds more than I have. What's up with that? But when I look back at my life, I really can't remember ever feeling too great. It seems like I have always felt tired and annoyed and frustrated. I have always just wanted to take a nap. And now that I am getting some grey hairs and my metabolism has obviously slowed down, I wonder what is going to happen to me.

I wonder if I am ever going to feel better. Will my working out and eating right pay off somewhere down the road? Will life begin at thirty? I mean, it is the new twenty you know.
*Come on people. Lay some advice on me. Tell me your story. Or just make me laugh. That's always nice. Feedback. I want feedback.



Sarah Klassen said...

I cannot believe it is the end of the week, either!

I thought it was just Monday — or at least, it felt like it. As far as accomplishments, I seem to set my sights so so high — I am a dreamer and forever hopeful and ambitious about the future. I know God has plans for me, and for you, too. You are a lovely lady, stay hopeful — 30 is young! You have plenty of time ahead :)

Hope you get to do a few things on your list this weekend...


Julia (Color Me Green) said...

i know what you mean about feeling unrealized potential due to tired laziness. but have you tried sleeping more?

shari @ little blue deer said...

Life definitely begins at 30, my life has been a million times better in my 30s than my 20s! Yes, the metabolism slows down, and yes, a few grey hairs appear, but the weird thing is that the older I get, the less I worry about it (and have also discovered Spanx!). I used to worry a lot about how I hadn't accomplished nearly what other people had, then I realized that we're all on our own path and it isn't a competition. Okay, enough "wisdom" out of me, lol! Hope you feel better, oh and p.s. I definitely believe in doctors, I mean, if they can help you, let them, just my opinion! XO!

Jen said...

Remind me again, what part of the area are you in?

Kendr▲ said...

Im like you and feel tired all the time!

Hope you can come check out my blog and maybe even follow?

Elise said...

I haven't been to the gym in months. Seriously. Months. Last time I went, about a month ago, I got a nasty cold. But before that, it had probably been two months. I miss it, but just cannot be arsed to go.

I think most people feel like they haven't turned out they way they planned. But that's just life. You do have masses of creative potential and I think one day, it will come. Something will happen and it will release it all.

I always wonder about those people who just do stuff. Like they decide they're going to do it and they do it. They just must have more drive than the rest of us.

Ah, I don't know. I wish I could say something useful. I think the one thing to be grateful about is that there's always hair dye to disguise the greys!

Elise said...

Also, just wondering - what do you want to do? What would be your perfect life?

Maybe just thinking about what you actually want might put you on the right path.

And from all that I've read about how writers write, the advice that keeps popping up from just about everyone is 'Don't wait for inspiration to strike. Be disciplined and make yourself do it, whether you're feeling creative or not. It's easier to go back and fix up something. You can't fix up nothing.'

Just a thought.