Are you serious? This week has already went by? I haven't even posted since last Thursday? What the heck?
I'll tell you what the heck. I am exhausted. I can't seem to muster up the energy to do any of the things that my mind (and body, for that matter) keep telling me I need to do. Haven't worked out, not once this week. Haven't washed the dishes yet. Haven't made one single thing, even though I have massive creative overload right now. My "list" has come to a screeching halt.
Me and the doc had a nice little talk yesterday about what Zoloft could possibly do for my life. And me and the "girl stuff" doctor are going to have a nice long talk next week about why I am going to become a drug addict if something isn't done about my very painful girl parts.
Do you ever feel like you aren't living up to your potential? I know that some people are quite the opposite and feel like they have no potential to live up to. I, however, feel like I have masses of potential, yet no energy to even attempt to live up to it. Do you ever just know, deep down, that you were meant for something bigger than what you are doing right now? Because, I believe that my life is meant to be a lot more than what it is at this time. To be honest with you, I feel a little ashamed that I haven't accomplished more by now. I will be 30 this year. There are people half my age who have accomplished worlds more than I have. What's up with that? But when I look back at my life, I really can't remember ever feeling too great. It seems like I have always felt tired and annoyed and frustrated. I have always just wanted to take a nap. And now that I am getting some grey hairs and my metabolism has obviously slowed down, I wonder what is going to happen to me.
I wonder if I am ever going to feel better. Will my working out and eating right pay off somewhere down the road? Will life begin at thirty? I mean, it is the new twenty you know.
*Come on people. Lay some advice on me. Tell me your story. Or just make me laugh. That's always nice. Feedback. I want feedback.