* by vol25
I will be grateful for this day. Even when I have to suck it up to get through it. Even when things go from bad to worse. Even when it seems impossible to be grateful.
It is supposed to be the season of magic. Brotherly love and good cheer all around. Laughter and music. Peace and goodwill. But it's not always.
Christmas will be here soon. And deep down in the bottom of my soul, what I really want this season is contentment. Not just for me, but for my family and friends, too. I'm not only talking about physical contentment; being happy with what we have. I also want to be content with myself, my relationships, and my own efforts. Am I doing enough to make my life a positive one? I want to know that even when things around me are faltering and everyone is confused and unsure, that I am fully content with what I stand for and believe. I want be able to look chaos in the face and rest assured that I am doing what I can to preserve my self. My morals. My faith. Other people can have a way of making you feel like you are crazy. I want to be able to distance myself from the crazy and see things for what they really are, even if it sometimes means that I have to give something up.
Life is constantly changing. We just have to keep on keeping on. This month, in the midst of the hustle and headaches, I hope we can all stand back for a moment and find the peace within ourselves. And be truly content with what is deep inside our hearts.
*I apologize if you spaced out half way through that rambling. One of those moments where putting my thoughts into words was not that easy.