Friday, January 23, 2009

Nothing to Fear but Fear Itself

Who came up with that stupid saying anyway?!!! That is the dumbest thing I have ever heard! There are PLENTY of things to fear besides fear itself. PLENTY!! The moron who made that quote up has obviously never been in a motorcycle accident, been abused, been robbed, had their heart poured out onto the floor and stomped on, had cancer ......... ok. come on people. I could go on and on and on.

But lets talk a little bit about fearing something that you desire. Take, for instance, the brand new 2009 Honda CBR 1000RR. Just looking at this bike does things to me that I don't think I should share with the world. Both good and bad. This bike is beautiful. It kinda makes me want to put on something sexy and talk dirty to it (sorry mom). But it also kinda makes my skin crawl. Makes me shudder. You see, it was a similar beauty that so unlovingly took the skin off of my shoulder for me. And my back. And my booty. And a chunk out of my hip.

But the sun is shining today. It has warmed up a few degrees. And my heart has searched out this gorgeous bike to lust over. I can remember the way it used to feel to ride. I can smell the honeysuckle in the evening rushing up the front of my helmet. I can feel the warm summer air brushing the back of my neck. I can taste the rush. It makes my mouth water. And, now, it makes my blood run cold with fear. I fear it, yet I miss it. I am scared of it, but I desire it. Am I crazy? Ok. Yeah. Don't answer that. Haven't you ever desired something that you also feared?

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Yep, I have. I wish I had another life, but I fear trying to change it ;) It's called self-sabotage.